Black Days

From rich to poor
buried the arms of another
missed every open door
living but why bother

stare into the open
forget yourself for a second
and stare into the open hoping
to lose yourself for a second

heavy legs still move
desperate for a second chance
smoked life's cigarette
and still hoping for another

but,
the pack's already gone
and now i'm smoked
soon to fill the pack

i wonder what it was worth
when flowers decay and skies blacken
memories aren't your best friend
but an envied transition

The Sea's Pleasures

Walk cautiously along the sea of trouble
It’s full of soul eating monsters
And though I do know it appears mystical
“My friend, just stay here with me”

Such a courageous spirit my friend!
“This boat is tougher than you may think”
I trust he has ridden it all along the rivers
That pour themselves into the sea of disaster

“It is only your soul that suffers!
There are sirens and goblins there!
That come in when you're least aware
Laughing and mocking you to despair!”

“Nay” say he clumsily getting to his feet
And he raises his finger as to make a point
But out comes a sigh to a distant glance
“I ride the river to the sea of darkness”

Who am I ? I think to myself
To think I could alter the universe
“But here” I tell him
“Take this flashlight so that if it gets too dark
You may signal the others that you need help”

But it’s not much good –
Who listens to one another in the sea of black?
Each looking for his own way out
But the sirens never stop
And men can have such weak hearts

Are

The beauty of two souls together
A mystery kept with god
That pumps the chemicals
Which poison our hearts

Rambling

What to write about?
Is that such a question?
A million things –
Where are your pens?

Locked up in your brain
Trying to find
The proper ryme?
Unnecessary time!

Green, red, fire black
Hate, love, comedy
Act, but its all
Too serious!

Life is like a hamster
Ball said the wise prophet
Who lay motionless in your mind
Shot down by his own idealogy

With Waves of Emotion

Seating myself on a park bench
On a chilly day in late December,
I try to rest myself of this memory
Looking over the cold blue sea

The waters are crashing to the ground
Climbing their way toward me
Recoiling away from me
Oh... how nature does mock me

I can’t keep my eyes off you
It’s something in your dancing
That leaves me wondering
If the next crash will be a little closer
And a little stiller

What makes you so restless sea?
What is it that you can’t tell me?
I’ve sat here a long time with you sea.
Surely you can trust me?
Is this just you playing with me?

I hate leaving this cold bench
My time with you I always cherish
But I fear I may lose my head
If my heart doesn’t accept that you just won’t stop

Tearing at the Heart

My lungs are filling with smoke
And in a distance, I see a shining light.
Is it the pale glow of the darkest night?
Or the afterglow of a lightning strike?

My heart begins to beat rapidly
As I let the elusive grey matter fill my veins
It cries to my brain, “Don’t let this happen to me!”
Though I just sit there quietly wallowing in self defeat

But still my heart races begging me to see
Of all the illustrious wonders love could be!
That this is not the end!
But yet another chance to amend!
Wherein lays a chance to grow, rise, and overcome!
But no no please don’t succumb!
Yes, yes I know it sounds dumb
When all that was bright has gone dim
But I swear I’m still your friend
So please, please, please don't do me in!

"Gentle heart, I could never do you in"
"But you must realize there is a time for everything"
"And that includes the sorrowing"

But why is that? I wonder
That I treat love as an escape
While my heart slowly assimilates into hate
Leaves me wandering - lost - in this cloudy state

Ending A Seasonal Love

Love in the Autumn
Leaves wilt into colored beauty
Ever year long
Love in the Autumn

Love in the Spring
The lady refuses the ring
Never again
Will love bloom in the Spring

Love in the summer
The drugs continue to make me dumber
Too high to ever
Create love in the summer

Love in the winter
The men are all much too bitter
The man’s seed will never
Blossom love in the winter

In the time where everything slowly wilts away
Does only true love still shine

Untitled

Looking over the grassy cliff
I'm not sure what takes
In the distance, a star explodes
What is it that makes us so far

At the start of a day, I hide
my underlying inhibitions:
I make each step strong and swift
as to know what it takes
But from here to there, I know not where

Then at the day's fall, alone and motionless:
The demons pour out to mock the past.
I listen but do not understand the crime
that I've done to hear them again and again

No one wants to live like this
So people walk and teach us another way.
But when we're sitting their listening:
The struggle is enough work we say

Curiosity has haunted me for days.
I opened a book the other day:
It told me a tale that men are all one.
I dropped everything for work had to be done.

I lifted up my boot and tore the
size tag right off.
Then I took off as one with everything

I walked for awhile,
But wouldn't know that
I laugh but still don't get it
My eyes won't stop lying to me

Looking down, I jump to
no where from nothing

Cupid's Love (Poison)

Rivers will flow and the wind will continue to blow
Always leaving each other be

Again and again, does the river havoc my envy
“In time,” I say to myself, “I will become thee”
And forgive this wind for blowing so cold
In these frost bitten days...

Cupid threw me his arrow in times long gone
“Pick your love soldier, let your bitterness be!”
What is it that could go so wrong?
O the deception eternal love did have on me

A baby girl, and perhaps a brave boy
A perfect family with a perfect father
Don’t you see?
It is any young man’s idea of ecstasy

I clutched the heart encrusted arrow
And let an amber arrow fly
Piercing through the corridors of her heart
Leaving its poison behind so effortlessly
You, beautiful eyes, will be mine forever

I took a second look at the eyes of my victim
Such purity, I could see right into her soul
An avalanche had reined fury upon me
My blood blackened and my heart stiffened
Ever so painful was this guilty despair.

“What do you care?”
“Is eternal love not good enough for you?”
“You’d think you were made of stone”
“Why do you mortals have to be so rude?”

Her eyes were that of the clearest sky
What a beautiful window did I gaze through
With the hands of a thief did I extend that cursed bow
Selfishly pocketing the soul’s beautiful glow

“Yes cupid, for I am a being of moral stone”
“For never will I love an infected, seduced
lifeless, thoughtless drone”
“That your love arrow had so wrongfully sewn!”

“Oh? A moral man?”
“Ha-ha, humans will never stop lying to themselves”

Damn you Cupid
And damn your spell
And damn my selfishness
And damn that day guilt spawned within my veins

And what do I get in return?
Punishment? Condemnation? Perjury?
How I would love for those.
You know not what a guilty conscience bears

Always seeking me she is, never leaving me
Eternally forgiving, incapable of blaming me
So unaware of her heart’s treachery
She will always seek to satisfy me

Since that day I have wandered off
slowly icing my heart
Until the day comes when it shall shatter
And I’ll have found my ecstasy

Our love is eternally loyal you see
Forged on Earth to never cease
We cannot forget of one another
nor age any longer

Time has become but a river to us
You are just water to fill the otherwise empty void
Flowing down your path in and out of each torrent
Relentless and unsatisfied do you always seem
Always seeking to control time’s current

And above you, there I will forever be
A brittle leaf blowing and tearing
A victim to the wind’s eternal brutality
Observing the rivers of possibilities and opportunities
Trickle down the mountains, through valleys and trees
And finally forming their way into the final sea
A place, I cannot be

A Moment

Before you lead me to the corridors of hell
Stop and listen to the wind
It's furious and raving
My fingers frost bit, feet numb, I've been cold my whole life

Hold at the entrance, and see my life
Running in circles to burn in bliss
Stop and look at the dizziness
My eyes are tired, brain is swirled, I've been confused my whole life

And as we float through the Earth's wall
Look at the many I've thrown up around me
In my own little world, I am suffocating
Look at me twist away in agony, I've been suffering my whole life

Tip toeing on life's tight rope
I look down too often looking for the other side
Just rock, steel, and human's passion
To deceive themselves of death's proximity

The act is getting old, and my dance is out of rhythm
May your spotlight fade slowly
But mine will end abruptly