Lonely, the guilty pleasure of artistry

 

Find myself sitting here 

Wondering where the time disappears 

There it floats on by 

I can see it going fast by 

There it runs and there it goes 

I could find myself if I could find a hole

But there I am once amongst friends 

Lonely oh lonely 

It’s the guilty pleasure of artistry 

Lonely oh lonely 

It’s the guilty pleasure of artistry 

Find myself sitting here 

Wondering where the time disappears 

There it floats on way on by 

I can only grasp what I can find 

In my mind it’s all a haze, a textured pattern 

Of foggy…

Memories of you and me 

I find myself feeling the melancholy 

(And I’m loving it, loving the beauty that comes with the tapestry) 

Lonely oh lonely 

It’s the guilty pleasure of artistry 

Lonely oh lonely 

It’s the guilty pleasure of artistry 

Find myself sitting here 

Wondering where the time disappears 

And there it floats on by 

I once had a friend I could confide 

But these days I find

Im staring at the walls and losing my mind

But there was a time I had a friend or two

I could choose 

Lonely oh lonely 

It’s the guilty pleasure of artistry 

Lonely oh lonely 

It’s the guilty pleasure of artistry

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Not an idolater

 

See the tray 

See the ray - it’s filled to your…

See the tray - it’s filled with drinks 

One of them is yellow and the others are… 

Color of your soul,

It’s bleeding thru. 

I see it all around you. 

You can’t deny that your aura 

Is a little louder than your speech 

And I don’t really care to hear it anyway.

Your hair? it’s receding everyday. 

Mine? Only seizing the day…

What is this vagabond? 

What’s he rambling about? 

Couldn’t care less to be completely honest 

I live my life, I’m not an idolater 

I try to live as God put me here 

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La di-di da-da

La di di da da …

When you awake 

Wash your face 

And try to think of

Better days 

And if you arise 

On the wrong bed side 

Just turn your mind

To the other side

La di di da da …

This grief of mine

Has grown hands and limbs 

That I love to

Grapple with

It pins me down 

And I lose my grip

I’m being pushed 

To the middle earth

La di di da da …

The alarm is ringing 

Once again

Snap out of it my friend 

Don’t give in

But I can’t deny 

The appeal when it

Says come on in

I’ll show you everything

La di di da da …

Smoke fills the room

Like the way 

The Grief lingers 

within

A shadowed beast

That time forgot

Sitting amongst my

Every thought

La di di da da …

Kingdom come but

Never to just one

It's time to escape from

Being alone

And depart this den

Where my cohabitant

And only friend is

Grief never-end 

La di di da da …

So as the dawn 

Begins to break

I'll rise once more 

For my own sake

For though it rests 

Within my heart

I'll find a way 

Toward a better day

La di di da da …

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Elven Dream

The elves are running, or was it the birds?

To be completely honest I’m not really sure. 

My mind’s not right and my soul isn’t free —

I’m chained to the fantasy that is my dream.

In shadows, I wander, through echoes I roam,

Listening for a word from the unknown.

Upon the night sky, a comet gives hope —

A sure sign to take another toke

But where do these dreams end,

And where does my life begin?

I’m caught in between

Waking life and the deepest dream.

The moon shimmers down on me. 

It’s been a friend in my times of need. 

A temporary respite for the bitterness felt...

It rejects my wishes, but won’t reproach my heart

Out in the distance, beyond the green field

I can see a figure, it looks like a girl. 

But the sun’s rays will cast upon her 

And just like that — she’ll disappear 

And so where do these dreams end,

And where does my life begin?

I’m caught in between

Waking life and the deepest dream.

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On My Way to Work Everyday

On my way to work everyday

I jump past the crowds and hop the trains

To save a look from my boss’s fat face 

He’s nice and all but I don’t think he’s a friend of mine 

Through the haze there’s a spark within

Chasing dreams in a world that spins

Every step a story begins

Beyond these walls where my heart has been

Feel the rhythm of the city’s pulse 

I’m in the crowd but I’m feeling lost

Paying dues no matter the cost

Searching for the lines that I’ve crossed

On my way to work everyday 

Starting to feel like it robs me

More than it pays 

Sky’s the limit but it feels so far

Dreaming big under the same old stars

Riding this life like it’s a runaway car

Looking for a place where the real are

On my way to work everyday

I push past the crowds and I jump the trains

To save a look from my fat boss’s face

He’s kind and all, but I know he’s no friend of mine

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Stars Shining so Bright

The stars are shining so bright tonight 

I thought together we could walk in the light

The sidewalk is slippery and this hill is so tall

I’d hate to see you stumble and fall 

We are young and the world is new

Together we’ll face it, me and you

I could tell by the way glance at me

I’m gonna be that man, gonna make a stand

And take on the world for my loved one

There will be no one else, just herself

So come a little closer and grab my hand

We’ll walk together in this light

You are beautiful and so am I

We are young, and the night is long

Don’t think too much my sweet love 

You and I we’re just a kiss away

From a long time of happy times 

And if the end ever comes, I will hold them

forever, in my mind, it’s not a crime

to love forever and always remember 

Lives they come, and sure they do go

So deep in my soul, I’ll hold this time 

For the lives ahead, to be better spent

With love in my heart and you in my sight 

So come a little closer and hold my hand

It’ll be alright, my sweet heart

We are young and the world is new

Together we’ll face it, me and you 

The stars are shining so bright tonight

I thought together we could walk in the light

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Seed of Life

 Well lightning did strike

Said boy you ain’t right

Better head over to ma’s

Tell her you gotta a fever

You can’t stop thinking about her

And the electricity ran through me

I said love will save us

But the current said not now --

Too busy for the fright

It beckoned me to its call

So I followed the guide into

The secret garden

And there I smelled the flowers

The tree in the middle

Looked down at me

Said you know life 

Was just given to me

I said me too big tree

But I ain’t got no roots here

So I wander around

Wondering how I got here

Well the tree looked at me

Said to each their own 

But life was beckoned

And so we’re here

Well true enough tree

All we have is right now

But not even the garments

I wear will endure time’s flow

So where is it we go

When life says no more?

The tree staring at me replied,

“Take heed of the seed --

Where does it come from

When life says forever more?”